I'm Hooked on You

Artist: Al Green
Damn. I'm hooked. I really do like Private Practice. I was hoping it was a fluke but alas it's the real thing. This is how bad (good) it was - I made no snyde remarks during Grey's and for a minute or two I even liked McDummy. shivers in disgust

I loved the friend dynamic. I thought they all played it really well. I didn't entirely get the Baily stuff (ie what was the point?) but maybe I'd have to watch Greys to pick it up. I loved Sam in this episode so funny. Ah although it just hit me - I probably enjoyed GA/PP crossover because it had the Greys people I like and not much of those I hate (Merideth, Christina, George and Izzie - good riddance to the last two). And next week it looks like McDummy gets his - Go Steamy!

Baby When the Lights Go Out

Artist: Five

Well today started off pretty well.

I made beautiful but really horribly tasting peach scones yesterday. But not detered I decided to back a florentine-eque pizza this morning and it was really good. I bought a pizza crust, sauteed red onions, tomatoes and spinach in some light oil and put it on top of Paul Newman's tomato& basil sauce and topped it with mozzerella cheese. Delicious.

And I got to work there was no electricity - big storm last night. Princess Freckles and I and our co-workers spent much of the next three hours looking out the window watching people come to the door to then turn back to the parking lot. PF also tasted the scone and can attest to how bad it was :/

Anyway I left work early and was semi-productive before going to gym, class and volunteering. I'm pretty sure I got a bad grade on my paper but am too afraid to look.

Finally, I talked with my Granny - which is almost never a good idea and today was no exception. First the sad news is I learned that my dad's wife mother who is such a nice lady and always very sweet to me and B has early onset demensia. I don't talk with my Dad ever so I don't see her very much but will have to try to get over the bridge for a visit.

Second, I got to hear about all the classes my little siblings are in and what my Dad has bought and done for and with them. I'm glad they get to have a good Dad but at the same time I'm upset that he has never done anything for me or B and owes my mom a fortune in back child support. He's provided no emotional or finanical support for us but can do things for them, I jsut don't understand how anyone can just ignore their kids and not take responsibility i guess.

Anyway tomorrow's the big single's mingle so I've post an update Sat.

For He's a Jolly Good Fellow

Artist: someone
It's rather late in the day for this but HAPPY JOHN DINGELL day!

Congressman Dingell has served in Congress for a quarter of its existance (53 years). And if you listened to NPR today you will know that he is not like most older Senators and Congressmen. He's all there and the nicest man you will meet. He goes to more events than any politician I know and he love to talk with constituents. And everyone loves him. It's pretty funny because Republicans call his office and complain about whatever law or action but never Congressman Dingell - the funny thing is that they always think he's just unaware of the problem and that once he hears the correct answer he will agree with them. People from out of the district and state go to him for help too, just because he's such a nice guy and will help them if he knew about the problem/request.

Congratulations Congressman Dingell, no one deserves it more than you!

In other news, one of my bosses/friend gave me Harvest Sweets - Dark Chocolate raspberry Truffles and they are AMAZING! I ate the whole box within 2 hours! To be fair it was only like 9 pieces but nevertheless, they are VERY GOOD!

In other news I babysat Baby C yesterday and was sooo glad that he didn't cry the whole time. In fact he barely cried at all! H & M are such great parents and are always with him when they can be that he doesn't have a babysitter often and last time I watched him I put him to bed and it was the first time his parents didn't. I was afriad he'd be scarred for life but he wasn't.

He was so much fun. He's only one and half and I had him color a picture for his soon-to-be baby sis and let him give her one of the outfits I got for her. He was so cute picking out which one to give and putting it in the bag I had him reenact it so I could film it for my camera.

Finally, I was rejected by 3 jobs in 2 days - more qualified candidates. I'm so doomed.

Don't Let Me Get Me

Artst: Pink

So I'm suffering major anxiety and frustration.

I decided to speak with one of my professors about my book and publishing some articles (see if the idea is pratical). He thinks its a great idea and that I should go to graduate school. So all day I've been thinking about grad school.

I'd have to wait 18 months before I could even start since I didn't apply. Didn't take the GRE. And the added and continuous problem of not having a language proficiency thus excluding me from most programs.

My whole college career was based off getting in to Teach for America. I got rejected in October. Then a miricle happened and I got an internship that would lead to a job but the program was suspended. The result is I have to plan for the future and have no where to start and am behind.

I've been applying to jobs online but the fact is I'm not sure how much I really really want to do them. I know I can do them and I know I would be good at it but I don't know if it will make me happy. I was raised to only care and think about money and these jobs would provide me with that. I could buy things - matching undercloths for example - and go on vacation - Charleston, NYC and St. Petersburg. I could take classes, socialize maybe meet someone. My work might not be fun but maybe I could have a good life.

My dream option is to work for a politician or at the White House but I'm not sure how practical the first is and the second is a dream. Neither would provide me money but excitement and satisfaction. I think sometimes that working at a non-profit or think tank would too. I like to work with people and research.

A goal in my life is to get a PhD. I promised my Aunt Sharon I would get one. But I'm so tired of school. I don't know if I could survive 4-6 more years. especially since I'll be a year behind - which means I don't even know if I could get in. I'm still not sure where I could get in because of the language issue. But I don't want to make the same mistake twice in regards to college so if I go I want it to be somewhere I like - MSU or somewhere on the East coast. New England, NY, DC or SC would be great. I may be able to have a life and be in school but I don't know if I could get in.

There is my other problem. I go to the school I do because I was afraid to go somewhere big. I thought I was too dumb, I didn't realize that I was only an idiot for not applying because I could have got scholarships to alot of schools and I would have done fine and probably have been happy too. I'm scared to go to grad school. I get all As but I don't think I'm that smart. I don't think I'm that great of a writer either. But I don't know if its the lack of self-confidence and fear that have plauged me or that I know the truth and other people or all crazy.

I don't want to make another mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life but I don't know what the mistake is.

I'm not about to have my dream life - a husband, home and family - I can't even get a date. Part of me just accepts this fact. The other part isn't sure. Is getting a career a good way to find a job and get that or is going to school and maybe meeting someone there. Or more importantly will school just be a final nail in the coffin as I'll be with mostly younger people and miss out on a chance to potentially get a life? I don't know if I want the nail yet.

Bumpy Ride

Artist: Robyn

Good things and bad things.

Good is that I signed up for a class at the local Rec. I've really wanted to take a class but didn't think I'd have the time and would have to wait until I graduated but I found a cheap, half hour abs and buns workout class and signed up.

Good and bad. My friend K sent me a sweet V-day card. She lives in NYC and I don't see her much so I thought I'd send her a little care package. She loves Tinkerbell so I got her a purse and then put other items in there that spelt CANDY. I'll post the sheet later. It's really cute. Anyway my Mom was mad and thought it was stupid and a waste of money and an arguement insued. And I realized - once I got to the postoffice - that I don't have her apt # so I'll have to send it tomorrow morning.

Bad there was a Political Science Club social at Buffalo Wild Wings and only two other people showed up and I had horrible food so I wasted my money.

Oh well, Housewives and B&S is on tonight and hopefully they will be good.

Back in the Day

Artist: Christina Aguilera

Dorothea Lange New Deal funded FSA Photography

I answered a couple of phonecalls today at my internship that rather upset me. They were about the stimulus bill and one person said that they did not support funding art. I did my job and made no comment but I'm going to now.

Two disclaimers. One I'm not an artist of any sort nor do I possess any talent for it. I like pretty things and I appreciate other people's talent and other people's appreciation and respect for others talents. Secondly, regardless about how anyone feels about the stimulus package on principle and historically support for the arts have been a good thing.

During the Great Depression the Work Progress Administration put money in to roads, bridges, schools, libraries, parks and other facilities - many of which you can still see in your communities today because of the quality and workmanship.

The Federal Writer's Project employed journalist, novelists, and poets to ggather oral and local histories and create guide books for communities. Many of the narratives of slaves is because of the this New Deal program.

Photographs taken by Farm Security Administration workers are some of the most recognizable and emotional recordings of the Great Depression.

When this person called today what I really wanted to tell them what FDR had said when he was asked about federally funding the arts (like me he was a simple person who was not artisy) - artists need to eat too.

I Just Don't Know What to Do With Myself

Artist: Cameron Diaz (My Best Friend's Wedding)

With no time for anything I have added yet another show to my tv watching schedule. A recovering television addict I was so good and basically watching only a show or two now I'm up to like 7.

Sunday: Desperate Housewives, Brothers and Sisters

Monday: House, Gossip Girls (on commericials), One Tree Hill

Wednesday: Life

AND NOW...

Thursday: Private Practice (and for the next week or so Greys - which I've hated since day one)

My sisters was a super Greys fan but has since moved on thank goodness but I did catch a couple episodes when Addison was on and found her to be basically the only redeemable character. I was glad when Kate Walsh got her own show but I never really watched it since they moved it around so much. Now I've found it and I I like.

This episode was good and I was most impresed by the fact that all the cliches (baby dying, parents returning, Cooper taking the girl, Violet holding out in telling people, ect) were skipped and I was geniunely surprised at how it turned out. I must hand it to ABC after a few years of falling at to the wayside they are back with substantial television series that aren't all reality which I hate - although to be fair I'm a recovering ABC soapy and my expectations for the network are incredibly low (if you watch General Hospital you'll know what I'm talking about)