Fearless

Artist: Taylor Swift

Today was sad. Miss. P quit and she didn't say good-bye. That hard. Really hard actually. P's been a rock for me for a long time. She's feeds me, listens to me, gives me hugs - all things my mother usually doesn't. She's supportive and has filled my wardrobe with the cutest outfits. It hurts and its sad but - as long as she's okay - I'm sure its for the best. Not that P's being there would have kept me there but it would have made it a nicer place to work. Now...not so much. I LOVE a dozen of the people there but P is P and there is no replacement.

Then ofcourse there is D - Slackerboy is awfully harsh and I only went with it bc LonelyBoy on GG. I don't know what's going to happen there. Maybe it's over, maybe we'll have some fun, maybe we'll date. I don't know. I'm not worried about it though. To my GREAT surprise D showed me that not all guys are complete jerks. And he is an AMAZING kisser. Those two things will always stay with me and have changed me for the better.

J was shocked at how much calmer and less tense I am - it made her feel calmer and less tense.

I guess today is an official ending to my life as I knew it - or at least hopefully - New problems await but I definitely feel more prepared to deal with them so....

New Me, New Blog: Fearless

Less drama - more fun, fashion and God willing boys!

Kiss Me

Artist: Six Pence None the Richer

It's an Easter Miracle and the Apocalpse must be nearing because the impossible has happened! I kissed SlackerBoy and it was NO peck on the lips. IT WAS REALLY NICE!

When I gavbe SB my number I NEVER thought he'd use it. EVER! But he did. He called and asked if I wanted to go to the bar - Thank you The Hot One - and I said yes (of course!). He asked me where and I said he was the expert and he had to choose. He was going on a run and said he'd call me after.

For me a guy saying he'd call back typically means i'll never hear from him but I still called the posse in disbelief. Then he called back! after his run and asked if I decided where. I said I don't know. He said he was going to shower and we could both think about it. CEO suggested Ashley's and when he called when he got home I recommended it and he said okay and he'd call when he was leaving - which he did. I again was AMAZED that he actually called. Very unusal for me but I AIMed with SoLMioke and he said guys usually do called - I realize using my "father" and SoldierMan for yard sticks probably not accurate, a definite good thing. I also AIMed with The Hot One for advice - always the sweet one.

SB let me know he was leaving so I left and he called me even before I got here. Again the phone calls amaze me. Anyway, he was wearing his glasses and OMG!!!!!!! He looked hotter than usual which is NOT an easy task. We got a table - he wasn't feeling well from eating bad fish and then running so I ordered an apitizer just cause I didn't want to piss off the waitress.

Ashley's has 100 beers so SB chose one and thankfully they had a couple martini choices and I got a Pomegratite one that was delicious! I also tried his beer and he asked me to pick out one for him which I did. It was the first time I had beer so another first, I liked it more than I thought but I prefer the fancy drinks. Drinking his was a way for me to be flirty - per the Hot One's suggestion. I was surprised too when he drank my water later although he may have been drunk - it's hard to tell bc again one emotion.

I had been really nervous about conversation bc we've known each other 5 1/2 years and see each other a couple to most days a week. But it wasn't an issue. Conversation was easy.

I also got drunk for me "foggy" for most people. But definitely hazer than I ever had before. Definitely loose enough to not chicken out.

So the end of the night and I just knew I had to do it no matter what - no regrets. I told SB to stop and I grabbed him and kissed him. And he kissed me back. And it was REALLY good. Not what I thought it'd be like but REALLY good. Then an asshole knocked on the window and ruined the mood. We went to my car and talked for a couple more minutes. I wanted to kiss him again but I didn't want to push my luck so I wasn't going to try but he did. Awesomeness.

So what now? IDK and IDC. Big picture is I met my goal. And a VERY specific one. My first kiss was with SB and I like him and he's hot and I'm comfortable with him - it wasn't a random or familiar loser. i can now safely date whoever and I'm not a total loser.

Also very unexpectedly SB improved my perception of men.

Anyway, I'd LOVE to kiss him some more but I'm realistic - he may have just been drunk or drunk enough - again idk. I haven't thought about seeing him again Wed - The Hot One says dont do any preemptive contact. I'm honestly 100% okay with whatever. He's hot so it'll kinda suck but i could always take J's suggestion and pull him behind periodicals lol.

I'm not worried. I'm going to take the ever unusual for me position of wait and see. I'm content and perfectly happy with this being one great night for the records, should something more happen cool if not I'm good with that too.

My blog can finally take on a happy demeanor as I can stand but my mother and underemployedness after this!

Miracles Happen

Artist: Maya

I listened to the Hot One - he said ask Slakerboy on a date or get hammered - I couldn't do the date thing bc I had a strong feling that he'd say no and while I could deal with it but I just think it can't be easy to say no to someone so...

I wasn't actually going to do anything but i saw him and we both were complaining about being tired and I said I wish i had an energy drink and he said he was going to get one before work but didn't. I said if he gets one pick me up one.
I NEVER expected him to get me one. And it was like 3 hours later and he comes upstairs and brings me an AMP. He had told HorseGirl to bring it to me but she forgot so he brought it to me. Not only did he get it and bring it to me he bought my favorite brand which I talk about all the time but its not mainstream. He drinks RockStar and most drink Monster. None of this means anything on his part I'm sure but it made him really hot.

Anyway, i decided to take Matt's advice and went with the drinking and said you want to go to a bar, he said when tonight?, i said sure, he said can't tonight, so I said a different night, and he said yeah, i said great let me know when that is.

Then I went who gave me lots of bad advice that would have really entertained her like go and make out with him on the desk. She also suggested giving him my number which I thought was really bad idea but after a couple failed but unnoticed attempts I brought him my number and said call me when you want to go out to the bar, bowling or whatever. He said okay, not on the weekdays but on the weekends and that totally shocked me. Before we left work he asked what bars I've been to - answer none. I again was shocked that he mentioned it.

Oppose to the no window of possibility there appears to be an actual window that may open! WTH! Who knew!

Sober

Artist Pink

As traditionally happens a night of sleep leads to re-evaluation of life.

Verdict: I'm gonna be alone forever and I have to accept that. The reality is most people date during college and find it near impossible post-college. I'm 3 weeks from post college and it ain't gonna happen.

Partially my fault for not fighting to go somewhere else to school were the student population wasn't made up mostly of old men, married men, orthodox men and unredeemable losers but again my mother refused to let me go somewhere else so what was I suppose to do? I went on a date with a loser who asked me out so I wasn't turning down opportunities and I asked out about a half-dozen guys and nothing ever worked out.

And I don't put myself out there enough but I honestly don't know how. I mean people scare me. I've done my very best to rebel against my mother but the fact is she taught me and B to trust no one and go by no one and you can't afford to do anything so don't even try. Our entire life was spent in front of a television with limited contact to the outside world and no real life examples of how families or couples behave. It's only been since my Aunt Sharon died 2 years ago that I'm even allowed to talk with family members without getting in to trouble but I still get in trouble about it just not as much.

Big picture is I'm completely screwed and screwed up. Any hypothetical date I would get out on I don't know how to behave. I'm so tense and uncertain I'm sure I undoubtedly come off cold and uninterested. And ofcourse the big issue of a kiss. I mean people DO NOT understand the absolute CLUELESSNESS I suffer. I've never seen people kiss in real life, sure on the street probably but PDA isn't huge and more importantly its certainly not a learning tool. I don't even know the first steps or how many steps there are. Nothing!

Although since this all likely irrelevant I'm just gonna attempt to let it go. Move on and look at the more positive sides of my life like underemployment, fights with my mother, unsolicited advice from strangers and no prospects.

Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want

Artist: The Smiths

So I asked Slackerboy to lunch and I think I underplayed my hand and backed myself in to a corner. My big concern is him accidently thinking I want to date him - which I think most people who know me assume I'm interested in a relationship - and being scared off and generally avoiding me. Therefore, I went with a "I'm going out to lunch, want to come with" and he said "sure."

We went to Potbelly's and had a nice time. I was actually surprised at how comfortable it was since I'm never comfortable, not even to hang out with someone, especially for the first time, male or female. Anyway I was careful to avoid any topic that would even hint that I may be interested in him - for any reason. We talked about somethings that may not normally come up a work but generally not so much.

As a result I don't think he knows I'm interested in anything. As a girl I would be curious as to why a guy I've worked with for 5+ years never asked me out to lunch but I'm not sure he thought of that. As his name suggests his range of emotions are limited to 1 - therefore reading him is impossible. He could have had a great, neutral or horrible time and I would not/do not know.

One thing I learned is that he wants to hang out with people, outside of drinking in their basements. I casually mentioned I'm always up for hanging out but it attrached no attention. There are a couple reasons why: he didn't hear me (again I wanted to avoid any possible hints of ulterior motive and/or he's a guy and maybe doesn't listen) or because I always say I'm boring and never do anything fun he's under the impression I'm no fun to hang out with - which may be true but I'm kinda confident that I'd be fun to make-out with because I'm dealing with a lot of pent up energy. Ofcourse there is also the easier reason of he's not in to me and doesn't want to hang out at all. But that is certainly more limiting.

Bottomline is now what? If ask him about again he'll think I want to date him which is not the signal I'm looking to send. I'm not sure what the signal I'm looking to send is. The Hot One/the "Love" Guru suggested asking him to drinks and generally trying to find out if he's sexually attracted to me (he also offered to ask him directly which I thought was very sweet of him but declined on the merit of it being veyr high school - not that any of this isn't). Ofcourse SlackerBoy has decided to stop drinking until graduation so getting him drunk is a little difficult.

I asked some of my guy friends to rate me - pathetic yes but helpful - and I received solid 7s. My one friend who is attractive and popular - therefore in a relationship - said if you include my personality a 9 (because he likes bossy women) and that he'd totally do me. I feel very confident with a 7 that is average and I would say certainly attractive enough to just make out with a person.

I honestly can't believe how difficult this is. In our ever degenerate society - a high school boy told me today that PS2 is too hard for some kinds because it has more buttoms than the Wii and requires more concentration! It is now too hard for people to sit on their ass and push buttons! Back to the point. I'm an average looking girl who just wants to make out with someone no strings attached and its basically impossible. And going through my phone and friends on fb Danny is the only remaining option since everyone else is in a relationship and the final 2 options are so horrible even I'm not that desperate.

I have a dreadful fear that even Drew's 25 year old character will be kissed before me.

Hot n Cold

Artist: Kate Perry

I'm reaching a breaking point here. And I'm very close to becoming unequivically desperate - thankfully I haven't quite reached that point yet.

Nevertheless, I've developed a "crush" on someone I would never "date" but desperately want to make out with - and no he isn't an Orthodox Muslim so hypothetically its a possibility; however my making out with him is still highly unlikely unless I just do it one day - which would normally never happen but I'm definitely in dire need to makeout with someone so I can't rule it out completely.

Although I'm grateful that I at least have maintained some standard and he's hypothetically smart, nice, fun and definitely hot. The funny thing is I've never given him any thought until recently but he's definitely not bad on eyes. You can tell its late because I'm using definitely way too many times.

I went to and visited H and Baby P and C. Although the kiddies weren't up for visiting it was great to see H&M as usual. Here's the latest picture of me and baby P. She's such a cutie!

This Ones for the Girl

Artist: Martina McBride

Here's a picture of me and my Mom, Great-Aunt Margaret, and Aunt Mikki at honors night. Althogh I'd get no bling if I walked or Summa Cum Laude I did get 2 plaques and was chosen Honor Scholar in both the History and Political Science departments so that was pretty nice. I'm the only person the Associate Dean has ever seen get 2 awards and its nice for the ego when you walk up and everyone gets one award and I got 2

I also got the chance to emulate my favorite lady - Stockard Channing wahoo!

The LIttle Things

Artist: Colbie Callait

Well Princess Freckles pointed out I haven't blogged in awhile and since something semi-interesting happened I figured I'd post.

In the ultimate good news bad news scenario. Orthodox Muslim boy likes me too much!

Although I cannot completely explain or give understandable justice to the practice I'll sum it up briefly nontheless. Shias can have temporary marriages which means I could touch him and we could make out. In the non-Muslim world we call this dating. There is no dating in orthodox Islam and so Shias have what Sunnis consider a "cheat" and a lot of Muslims don't approve of it. It's not at all but Muslims would view these temporary marriages like Americans view hooking. As an American however I see it as dating. Orthodox boy sees it like other Muslims therefore he feels like he's doing me a favor.

More importantly, he doesn't want to put himself in the situation because he likes me and casual temporary relationship is all we could ever have and well I'm all for it he's not. With all or nothing on the table I get nothing - we're friends that's good but man I want to make out with him!

I'm All Shook Up

Artist: Elvis Presley

Amazingly although many people feel that I am very political I don't write about politics very much here but I absolutely must post a comment I intended to make in response to an article I read but that the computer wouldn't let me.

The ravage hatred of Obama is driving me absolutely crazy. First of all he's barely been president and yet everyone thinks there should be all of these drasitic changes or even worse no change at all.

WTF? George Bush spent more money on a war than Obama plans to spend DOMESTICALLY to fix the economy that W ignored for 8 years and Obama?! is the wasteful spender!? What is wrong with this country?

We would prefer to see a nation of unemployed, homeless people(becuase of foreclosures which don't simply effect stupid irresponsible people, particularly when there are no jobs for even the brightest hard working people), with no money (because the banks have failed), and no national defense (because the autos have failed and we have no manufaturing base the big companies and their smaller suppliers) and China or whoever buys up all our abandoned, repocessed and bankrupted property and business.

Yep those all sound like great alternatives.

I don't approve of huge deficit spending but NEWSFLASH we have limited alternatives! The Stimulus may not work and may cause more problems yes but NO ONE knows that yet. What we do know is that if NOTHING gets done than we will DEFINITELY have more problem!

"Bush screwed up this country for 8 years while the only thing people could do was say he's a moron - no he took action, what he thought was right based off his beliefs and ideology.

Guess what Reagan, Kennedy and Roosevelt all did the same thing.
So did Lincoln, Washington, Jefferson, Wilson, Johnson, Eisenhower, Truman, Grant, Harding, Coolidge and all the rest.

Some were right and some were wrong. Obama is doing what is necessary - action and while he can because in a few weeks Congress won't make a substaintial move for another a year and a half at the earliest.

If you'd prefer watching the entire economic and defense system of the United States collapse than continue to applaud the inactivity of Republicans who offer no better alternative than to say Obama is wrong.

But I'll remind you that Hoover got voted out of office for taking no action and then taking some steps in the last months of his presidency (sound familiar?) and then FDR can with sweeping and controversial reform that is today accepted as common sense and fundamental rights as US citizens.

Obama may not be the next FDR but we won't know that until we at least wait a year its been 40-some DAYS PEOPLE!

FINALLY IF YOU WANT CHANGE RUN FOR OFFICE!"

My Girl

Artist: Temptations

Here's a picture of the cutest girl in the world! Isn't she so ADORABLE! She's my cousin's baby and is one week old. I was so happy to be asked to babysit for Baby C when she was in labor but never got to see the latest addition, Baby P. After these pictures I'm going to have to make a special visit before work and cross my fingers that my car holds up the journey!

Comin' Home Baby

Artist: Michael Buble

Well not coming so much as leaving. I just can't take it anymore. I love my Mom I really do but we don't get along and I think distantance will do us good - and I'm not moving far. She tells me to move out everyday, she doesn't talk to me at all and says maybe she'd talk to me more if she didn't see me all the time, and she tells me I'm grown and shouldn't be staying with her. So really I'm just listening to her.

I'm lucky because my BFF (& I mean that literally because we fight sometime like the past couple months but I called and it was like nothing happened) needs to get place so we're going apartment hunting this weekend. Since she's going to be staying there and I'm more or less just staying with her she's not having me pay that much rent so its not unreasonable or irresponsible. And most importantly its necessary.

It's my Mom's B-day today and I was really glad that she liked her gift, especially since I've been avoiding her and home for the past couple days after a fight. Anyway, I hope she won't be mad but I know she will be. I'm hoping that after a little bit she's see that its a good thing but I'm not hopeful and really scared. I don't want to hurt her feelings or make her mad but for both our sanity its essential.

Cross your fingers because I'm going to need all the positive thoughts I can get!

Another Way to Die

Artist: Alicia Keys (Quantom of Solace soundtrack - Awesome!)

I saw the new Batman movies for the first time yesterday. The Dark Night is better than Batman Begins but they are both good. Batman has always been my favorite comic hero - tall, dark and handsome - I watched all the newer batman series when Iwas a kid. Loved Batman Beyond because Stockard Channing did the voice of Commissioner Gordon (like Dame Dench the male role became female) but not the point. Batman is great because he's dark and badass all on hisown without any superpower just like my other favorite Mr. Bond, James Bond.

I couldn't help but notice that the two characters are very similar and more than that the updated versions & their respective actors play them similar to each other but different then their predecessors. Craig and Bale definately bring the badass, dark, grittiness to their character which I LOVE. And the producers bring less gadgets. I think its a society thing - now that we have all these toys ourselves we don't want to see them in the movies. We can hackcomputer, have phones with cameras and guns but as a nation of couch potatoes single handedly taking down a dozen guys and saving the world will impress.

Here are the parallels I've found:

BOND & BATMAN

Bad Ass

Simply Irresistable

Cool Cars

Pretty, TOUGH Ladies - ditsy damsels don't cut it anymore

Faithful advisors

Iconic

The First Cut is the Deepest

Artist: Sheryl Crow

So I've given up trying to be optimistic/cheerful because my life just sucks.

My Mom LITERALLY won't talk to me. People don't appreicate this but I mean LITERALLY! I usuallydon't even get a good morning. She is not going to let me live with her after graduation and I have to find a job that pays enough for rent.

I can't even get my Gram to let me stay with her for 2 days or even a night and she lives 1 mile away and lives in a 4 bedroom house by herself.

I may as well have no father at all because I never talk with him, don't have his number and he has never helped me in any way whatsoever.

I can't even turn to my sister because she's just not that type of person. I try but she screams to my Mom that I'm bothering her.

I don't really have friends to turn to, my 2 former BFs aren't talking to me so I can't even talk with them about it or go out to escape. My other BF lives in NYC and we just don't talk that often. Penelope never answers her phone. I love the people at work and surely complain enough but there is only so much they can do. And H is great but she's family too so I don't want to make things weird for her plus she has 2 babies and doesn't need my drama nor does she have time to hang out much.

Mr. H is always supportive but I can only harass him so much and I rarely get to see him.

I ofcourse have no bf or much potential and my life in bubble with no men leaves me with 0 experience or comfortablity which makes it all but impossible to meet someone. No one really understands that just like my mother does NOT talk to me. I know NOTHING about guys. I don't know how to be in a relationship bc I've never even witnesses one to learn from. My wholefamily is basically single women who don't date.

In sum - I'm lonely hell and it isn't looking optimistic.

Thank You

Artist: Christina Aguleria

Because I've been such a bad blogger I didn't even notice MRM gave me an award! I'm sooo flattered and surprised! Thank you!

"These blog are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight more bloggers who must choose eight more bloggers and include this cleverly written text in the body of their award."

I'll be honest and say I'm not exactly sure how this works and whether these people have the award already but I'll pass it on to:

1. Princess Freckles

2. Newbie New Yorker

3. Sweet, Sassy & Always Classy

4. A little bit of this and A little bit of that...

5. Jane

6. Megan

Ordinary Day

Artist: Vanessa Carlton

I've been an awful blogger of late. Things have just been too busy. Soo many things where to start.

First - Lent. I'm an awful Catholic but a proud Catholic. I wish I went to church more often but I don't however I have started reading the bible - which I suppose doesn't make me any better of a Catholic lol - and am trying to give up gossiping. The latter is VERY hard. I know I'm a gossip but it's hard to determine what's talking about my life and what is gossiping so that won't be easy (especially at my job) but I'll do my best.

Second - President Obama's unofficial state of the union. I thought it was great. It really spoke to all the issues I really care about namely EDUCATION! It's so nice to hear about education as a priority since it hasn't been in such a long time. His call to action of course reminded me of JFK's and really makes me want to do CityYear whatever the cost. That's my big thing right now - what to do with my life. I just don't know.

Third - Shopping. I went on a spree today. I mostly bought things for Baby C & soon to be Baby P. I bought cutest stuff for Easter from Target and these really cute little sport eggs so I'll have a egg hunt for C. I would totally have gotten way more for Baby P but I'm broke. I want to get her a cute little dress but they are semi-expensive since I have no money. We'll see.

I also went shopping for me which I shouldn't have but I did. I got a cute Taylor Swift dress and a really cute pink purse that has a LOVE label on it. Since I love pink and alway dot my i's with hearts and the "O" is a heart I thought it was appropriate.

Fourth - Exercise. I started my class Tuesday and it kicked my ass but in a good way. I'm sooo out of shape which is horrible since I did so well this summer. I also rented Jillian Michaels work out tape which also kicked my ass. I've done alot of workout vids but hers is the hardest by a long shot! I'm going to really give it a go in March to try and lose some weight but we'll see what happens.

Finally - I learned I'm the Honors Scholar in both the History & Political Science departments and that was a surprise and really nice to learn. However I have no idea what it entails and am curious but I don't know how to tactfully ask that question to a professor - again we'll see.

It's All Coming Back to Me Now

Artist: Celine Dion

Newbie New Yorker is giving away the cutest tote! Sign up for the give away and I'd recommend following her too because she always has great posts.

http://newbieny.blogspot.com/2009/02/ive-hit-200-posts-wow-time-really-flies.html

Now I would like this post to be cheerful but unfortunately it isn't going to be. I started this blog to restart my life and be the person I want to be but I'm constantly reminded that saying something doesn't make it so.

The fact is what I'd love to do is do CityYear Detroit for a year, take a class or two, apply to gradschool and Teach for America and Eastern so I have options and then be a high school Social Studies teacher which was my plan in life since I was like 8 or 9.

The reality however is very different. I can't live with my Mom; therefore I can't do any of the above. And its not that I just can't stand living with her - which honestly I can't because she hates me and I hate that and its really hard to live with someone who tells you they don't want to breath the same air as you. This is particularly true when I spent the day before watching Gossip Girl with her and thinking we were in a good place.

We're not. We've never been and probably never will be. Plus you know she says I can't live with her so that also answers that question. Now I'm just crossing my fingers that I can find some job that pays me enough to move out and make enough money to make me happy and at least partially satisfied with life.

Ain't It Funny

Artist: JLo and JaRule

So my day was great. I mean perfect in fact. Which considering I have been feeling very down and stressed lately is quite a wonderful change.

I got an A- on Physics. MR. H's email! I learned that CitiYear may be an affordable option and my Mom talked with me today so it means it may even be practical. I thought my internship wasn't going to be good today and even though I wasn't able to do the work I wanted to I talked with one of the girls there and she said she'd call me if they go out this weekend. Then I went to Happy Hour with my some of my other favorite people - Princess Freckles, J and Ms. Ross!

I met J's hubby who is very nice. And they invited their friend - M. Since it was a group and I was rather nervous we didn't talk one on one too much but one thing that really stood out that I really like is that he likes Detroit, which I love! Anyway, we're going to go on a double date with J but I'm not interested in jinxing anything so I'll leave it at that.

Meeting a new guy is awesome but I really loved hanging out with the girls! My gf track record is as bad as my bf and it was soooooooo nice to hang out with PF and J .... and Ms. R ;)

It's funny because I somehow feel like high school and I got to hang out at the cool table with the popular kids. And particularly happy because it can be weird with co-workers and determining if you're work friends or friend friends and after tonight I feel like we're the latter.

So today was an unusually good day, the best I've had in ages!

Count on Me

Artist: Whitney Houston

It looks like I'm making up for lost time in the blogworld.

I got an email response from my favorite person in the world today - Mr. H. He was my high school teacher and retired the year I had him but I've been going to him with every crisis in my life since then and he is the best person I know.

It doesn't matter what the problem is school, boys, family, whatever I always email him and he always cheers me up. And when he's in MI he usually comes to see me at work which leaves me grinning for days.

I'm NOT in love with him but I love him more than anyone else in the world. With a mother that hates me, no dad and no other family members to rely on he has been my saving grace more times than I can count. He's the father/grandfather I wish that I had. I always feel terribly guilty bothering him - especially since he's retired but he never seems to mind.

Anyways lets hope my day continues in this direction.

God Bless America

Artist:

Well I've been so busy with school I haven't blogged in quite some time. Thankfully Physics went well and I pulled out an A- on the exam.

And today's Happy Hour day and I'm very excited! I can't wait to hang out with Princess Freckles, J and Ms. Ross, plus I'll meet J's husband and mystery guy too!

Tuesday Congressman McCotter (R-MI) came to campus (and it was a stressful fiasco that involved me hijacking a professor's class so he could speak to it but all in all I survived) and I was pleasantly surprised.

I'm a proud Democrat. I'm a moderate ideologically but I'm a strong party faithful, so I've never voted for McCotter and never really knew much about him. Personally, he's not a very friendly guy. Every politician I have met - Hillary Clinton, Bill Clinton, Barack Obama, Governor Granholm, Senators Levin and Stabenow and Congressman Dingell - are incredibly friendly and interested in people. Hillary and Dingell win by a long shot because no matter the crowd they will want to ask you questions.

That is B with Hill since her picture came out better and I don't have my professional photo on a computer.

I LOVE Hillary so I just have to recount my two encounters with her because she gets a harsh reputation which she doesn't deserve. The first time I was in high school, couldn't vote and went with my sister to an event with ALOT of important politicians. And there were 100s of people who wanted to talk with Hillary and she talked (by that I mean I shrieked incoherently and my sister translated) with us for a few minutes and took a picture with both of us even though her people were trying to push her through the line.

The second time I was volunteering a VIP event and was able to get a professional photo taken with her and I was the last person before she had to get on a plane so again there was a hurry. Nevertheless, she was very friendly and we took the picture when I was walking away she noticed I had my nametag on so she told me to come back and we'd take another picture! I LOVE Secretary Clinton!

On with McCotter.... the arrangement ended up being a townhall and he was gracious in answering questions but he never asked anyone's name or what they were studying even when we had a brief meet and greet with the Political Science Club (my org) and the College Republicans (who I work with). I don't hold that against him though, I just thought it was interesting.

Politically I mostly disagree with him but not entirely and I can pretty much respect his views. He's a Cold Warrior for sure - it was funny because he was talking about Fascist and Communist threats. I strongly disagree with his position on education because that is my important issue and he is not interested at all.

I did agree or at least strongly respect his position on the economy. He's oppose to the stimulus and I'm not but he wasn't bitter about it. He was nice to Obama and said that he'd wait to make judgements until later but he laid it into W - which surprised me. He does not believe in the free market and said business will look out for its self and become anarchy if the government doesn't regulate it which I strongly agree with. He's a good republican he doesn't believe in big government he believes in necessary government which I respect and agree with although we have a different interpretation of necessary. Again I was surprised that he said nice things about Governor Granholm who is not very popular around here.

Finally, what I agreed with/respected the most was his love for Michigan and Detroit in particular. He knows that a strong Detroit is essential for a strong Michigan. So I can't say I'd ever vote for him but I do respect him and don't mind that he's my Congressional representative.

The Little Things

Artist: Colbie Callait

Somehow I ended up having a psuedo date on V-Day with the person I'd want to most.

I have no idea what is around his neck and its not a fashion accessory

My Orthodox Muslim non-boyfriend ex called me.

The quick history is I met him in at a leadership program last year and really liked him. He asked for my number and called me few times and we would talk for hours. And then we'd hang out for hours. We even went out on a double (non) date, bookstore, Starbucks, and a party. And would just sit in my car and talk till 4 in the morning. It was perfect because he's smart, funny, sexy and I'm 100% comfortable around him.

Of course I'm not lucky enough to find the perfect guy and end up with a Orthodox Muslim who doesn't touch the opposite sex. Not great since I'm super attracted to him. And he also can't "date." A difficult concept for me to understand since we talk every day, hang out and go out. Something clicked in his head appearly that he can't "date" after a month or so and he "broke up" with me.

I was really upset and knowing the "rules" I tried to work something out. We couldn't really. We went on a great "date" downtown this summer. And he calls me occassionally and we talk for hours. I saw him for the first time in a couple months a few weeks ago and we talked everyday for about a week. I asked him out for V-Day just so I wouldn't be alone. Again I know the "rules" and made an offer he should have been able to accept. He rejected it in his polite, comical and apoligetic way.

(Note: I proposition him every few months because I happen to enjoy trying to seduce him (in a PG/13 manner since we've accomedated the "rules" a couple times) so my asking him out wasn't a pathetic V-day thing/attempt to "date" him ).

Anyway we hadn't spoke since then and I was - am always - surprised to see his name in my caller id. He wishes me a Happy Valentine's Day (the only person that day except possibly J) and we talk for 2 hours. And about everything ,as usually. I made him listen to Taylor Swift and John Mayer, he made me listen to a song from My Fair Lady and some classical music. He asked about my love life - which I swear is his favorite topic and one that I would like to avoid unless he wants to make out with me.

I was the one to end the conversation. Generally I think its a good idea to be the one to cut it off - leave him wanting more ;) and I really had to get my hair done (the club smell was killing me and it take 4hrs to do

Once I was off the phone I realized some important things.

1. He called because he felt guilty about not going out and decided to have a "safe" phone date
2. He still likes me and doesn't trust himself alone with me
3. We really did "date." As I've never dated I've never been sure of what it entails but the truth is whether he can recognize it or not, as a Catholic and American I can - we dated.