Monday, February 23, 2009

It's All Coming Back to Me Now

Artist: Celine Dion

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Now I would like this post to be cheerful but unfortunately it isn't going to be. I started this blog to restart my life and be the person I want to be but I'm constantly reminded that saying something doesn't make it so.

The fact is what I'd love to do is do CityYear Detroit for a year, take a class or two, apply to gradschool and Teach for America and Eastern so I have options and then be a high school Social Studies teacher which was my plan in life since I was like 8 or 9.

The reality however is very different. I can't live with my Mom; therefore I can't do any of the above. And its not that I just can't stand living with her - which honestly I can't because she hates me and I hate that and its really hard to live with someone who tells you they don't want to breath the same air as you. This is particularly true when I spent the day before watching Gossip Girl with her and thinking we were in a good place.

We're not. We've never been and probably never will be. Plus you know she says I can't live with her so that also answers that question. Now I'm just crossing my fingers that I can find some job that pays me enough to move out and make enough money to make me happy and at least partially satisfied with life.

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